The Menu - Explained

I once set up a wish list to filter out wannabe slaves that is as follows


I seek slaves:


a) Within the 21-59 age range
b) Fit (slim, average, defined or muscular) with a BMI (body mass index) under 24 and under 90kg
c) Non smoker and non drug user (that also includes poppers)
d) Passive or versatile in sex
e) Portuguese or English speakers
f) Healthy (that means properly medicated if you have any condition that requires it)
g) Dance / yoga / military / martial arts background

Item g) is preferential. The rest is not


Every master has a preference regarding what slaves they want


My tastes are simple, compared to others out there as I bear little restrictions regarding age and race, although regarding genders I only take male slaves


My restrictions exist for practical reasons and this is my little explanation as to why they exist


a) Within the 21-59 age range

Anyone below legal age should not participate in this game for obvious reasons


In fact I consider most slaves below the age of 30 to be unreliable regarding true slave training, but I still have the expectation that one will one day prove me wrong


Above 60 there are issues regarding fitness of both body and mind to consider, but I have had slaves gone above the 50 barrier that would put to shame many twenties and thirties

b) Fit (slim, average, defined or muscular) with a BMI (body mass index) under 24 and under 90kg


How to see if someone is fit... well there is a thing called BMI - body mass index that can give an estimate on to how you are in terms of health


There are many sites that can give you such information such as this one


It is not a perfect indicator, but a good enough approximation without seeing any picture of you or having a misguided body information on the profile


Many write their body type as defined being slim and others write defined or muscled being merely fat

I will not delve into the reasons for this, but it happens very often


My game is one directed at healthy performers and if I want to do all practices such as forced workouts, long bondage sessions with tricky suspensions and intense emotional episodes, I do not want to concern myself with you having a heart attack in the middle of a session or having to stop the training because you cannot move any more

Regarding the 90 kg restriction I am a lightweight master and although I am stronger than most would assume, I know my limits and cannot vouch for the resistance of my equipment if you go beyond that weight or that I will be able to prevent you from falling if that happens


I take my slave's security very seriously and I will not place you in any life threatening practice

c) Non smoker and non drug user (that also includes poppers)

Some find the idea of being smoked at or smoking during a session enjoyable, but I do not


I am a non-smoker and as such I despise the idea of hosting smokers that do so inside my house


This is a non-negotiable term that I set forth


Regarding the legal and illegal drugs, you can also take a look at a previous post I made regarding the why I do not allow them

d) Passive or versatile in sex

Even though BDSM is not about sex, I also enjoy myself having sex with slaves from time to time


As I play the active in this game, I will not give much attention to your cock, except perhaps to torture it


The exchange of sexual energy between the participants in this game is also an interesting play to do


I may be able to live without fucking you in a training, but if I am ever to own you that is a barrier you must break before being taken

e) Portuguese or English speakers

Breaking barriers is a part of the game, but if we can't communicate properly that won't be that easy to accomplish


The contract of submission is hand written as the words are dictated to you


If you can't write or understand what is written in the contract you will sign, what is the point of having you


The first training period is too short to be losing time trying to figure out how to convey my message to you


That is the time when I will have to establish the connection with you and when I will have to focus my attention more intensively in you to make sure all goes smoothly


Success or failure hang by a thread on the first slave training


I do not wish to risk it when we both have much to lose



f) Healthy (that means properly medicated if you have any condition that requires it)

I have had throughout the years slaves with HIV, diabetes and other chronic illnesses, physical disabilities and mental conditions


There are special cares to be taken so that our actions pose the least amount of risk to our lives and to those around us


In my point of view, living a life to the fullest does not mean living foolishly


The more time you live the more experiences you can get and the longer you can share a life with someone, being that a Master or a partner


Regarding sex, I do not do unsafe sexual activities with my slaves, owned or not


Respect among players means caring for the safety of each other


If I don't like your performance, I want you to leave with what you have and not take souvenirs that can physically and emotionally attach you to me


If I do like you, I want you to stay with me as long as you can







That being said, the barrier is not the illness but the man that holds it


I have been able to cope with them without any problem


Being able to accept it and to live with it is a job that must be done by you alone


Not being informed prior to your visit of any condition that you have will represent a lack of trust that may terminate your connection to me


Not being medicated and posing a danger to me and to yourself will not be tolerated

g) Dance / yoga / military / martial arts background


The perfect slave is one that is able to follow any orders


That means being able to endure difficult situations, tough positions, an hierarchy Master/slave even without active enforcement and being able to live with mental and physical rituals that have to be performed by you during your slave life


As such, having previously endured activities that demand constant routines and continued practice can give you the edge needed to interest me and therefore allow you to experience more on your training towards that goal


It is nevertheless a "nice to have", but we both can live without it

Having said all this, I have had slaves in the past that did not fit my requirements



The standards are set, but I allow small deviations if I feel in you the motivation to go forward and I can see myself as someone that can put you on the correct path


Nevertheless the more you progress in my trainings, the more I will demand from you


That means that any "slack" I give on the first contact will disappear before the final stage comes

My path is never easy, but it is always fun

Calling for a muse

Every writer needs its inspiration to write


My muse has been as and will always be for this blog the slaves that serve me


As you probably can notice by the agenda that I posted before this month, the period where I did less posts was when I was on holidays/house work


Even with more time to spare, the words did not come as easily as when I did slave training


There was a period where too much trainings eventually led to no posts, mostly due to being extremely busy and not having time to write, but what came afterwards was enough to fill more posts than for the rest of the year that had passed


My new year's resolution regarding slave trainings as I have posted on my recon profile brings a difficult challenge both for me and my muses in the coming year


Having only 4 slaves in a whole year is a very small amount by all standards


Will I be able to be inspired enough by their performance to be able to write new posts at a constant pace to keep my readers occupied


That is something for you all to discover



If you have been under my wing before and you think you can inspire me with your performance as my slave, feel free to apply to occupy one of the time slots available



Otherwise there will be nothing more to read soon enough

... at the end of the rainbow

How hard was it to set yourself for the training I gave you, with physical and mental preparations

Facing the final training... a slaves journey...


Not since taking the final leap and arriving for that first time in Lisbon and submitting to the complete unknown, had the mixture of desire and apprehension been as strong as for this challenge. Unlike anything previously undergone.


The last chance to decline passed, the flights were booked and the preparations commenced. The control, even from a distance, was strong and undeniable, as each step was ordered and obeyed.


The final hurdle ....


one last warning before setting everything in motion
you will face the last barriers that stand in the way of a slave with me
everything will be safe but with its share of disgust, fear, humiliation, rage and I will make yourself doubt many times that your place is here
there will be an overload of emotions strong enough to make you break beyond the point of no return
there will be no place for safe words or for you to deny yourself of a command given
you will have to trust me as never before
if you succeed your gift will be both the knowledge over yourself and the full extent of my little story

do you agree


Knowing that everything was to be stripped away, physically and mentally, owning nothing, reliant on the Master for everything, from his well being to how and what a slave put on his back or in his stomach, grateful for his continued existence, was to prove both humbling and cathartic.

How was it to live through such a training

Facing the trial...


More than ever now, the trust that had been built was tested and reinforced on a daily basis, going to sleep each night knowing that every new day was to be one in which the slave would grow a little more was tempered always by the nurturing strength and physical possession that also intensified.
The pride of being able to serve the Master, to be a vessel into which that energy could be poured, to feel desired, used and wanted, gave the courage and strength to accept each new ordeal.


When the slave faltered ... as did happen, his Master was there, strong, empathetic, but determined.
Knowing that He knew his slave better than it knew itself was the final surrender, control of the slaves body and mind were now His, not taken by force but through walking to the edge with His slave and keeping him safe, after which everything was handed freely and trustfully into His keeping.

What was left in your mind after the training

After completion...


At the end of the contracted training, all hurdles having been overcome, giving willingly all that had been demanded, the feeling of emptiness at first became overwhelming, the pride immeasurable, the emotions confused ..... but mostly there was the knowledge that the slave had been moulded into the strongest and most discerning of slaves.


Visiting your core and resurfacing is the most private thing you can do, this slave lives with the pride of that journey every day of his life, and is bonded to his Master by unbreakable threads.


My Master walks beside me still, every day.

slave alex

... at the start of the rainbow

How hard was it to set yourself for the training I gave you, with physical and mental preparations



For me Sir, it was more mental preparations than physical. the last time i flew to a different country to see a Master they almost broke me. they did not mean to that, they only wished to go deeper. but i ended up cutting the time with him short - the first time i have ever stopped a session - and finding a hotel to go and stay in Sir.


along with everything else i had been through, this was the final nail in the coffin and i took a complete break from serving for a year.


this year i have slowly been able able to build my confidence, and then - over the summer - i was given a choice by You Sir. to come, see, serve, and train with You Sir.


given my last weekend serving away i was very nervous about this and it took me a long time to think about whether i should come or not.


there was one comment You made that has always stood out to me as You were inviting me. to remove the remark about a Master betraying me. it highlighted someone with a lot of wisdom to me Sir.


i think the decision that made me decide to “risk” seeing You was how few people there are on recon who have what i need Sir. It was also by reading Your blog Sir and seeing You were obviously someone of deep thought and thinking.


to read Your blog was a way of answering all of the questions i would normally ask a Master which meant that i asked You very little. the talking we had before, had allowed me to see that the writing and You were the same person.


it meant that i would take the risk to see You. to not risk, meant i would probably never have a more intense experience, and that is what i needed, and still need Sir.


it was also when You said how this was a weekend to move me forward. there were not strings attached to the future other than a statement that You could help me Sir to the next stage - what ever that was.


after we had agreed the date, i basically carried on with life trying to not think about what i may be letting myself into. i realised at a certain point i was not talking to You as i was scared as to what may happen Sir. at that point i reached out more to You, but with Your blog there was not that much for me to talk about.


i felt any deeper conversation was not worth having until we had met and to see if we connected Sir. there are so many Masters that want to talk in much detail, and often, many of them turn out to be fake, so i try not to do that to much until i know that the person is real Sir.


as time came nearer, i did my normal approach of keeping busy, and trying not to think what i was about to do.


i did basic things, like check some expectations with You - such as what You looked like as my last photo of You was so old Sir, to find some emergency hotel places to stay around where You lived, and downloaded some apps on my phone that could help if i was suddenly on my own Sir.


the final day was very helpful, as i had an office move to organize - no real time to think Sir.


it was only when i was at the airport i had to really think about how i would approach seeing and serving You Sir.
- should i focus on all the hurt and pain of the past, and worry if it would repeat. that would poison everything that could happen between us Sir.
- do i worry about the consequences to the future - if my time with You goes wrong, do i see this as a sign that i cannot serve on a more intense level, or do i try and see this as an experiment to learn from.


so much worry, and so little time to focus on You.


when i came to was the decision to concentrate on the the now. not to worry what had happened to me, and not worry what could happen to me, but to concentrate, and to focus on each moment in the here and now.


this gave me a centeredness that i took with me throughout the entire weekend. it is one of the reasons why i did not ask You the sort of questions that i have since i had seen You Sir.


i also decided that if at a certain point i found myself in a bad situation, if a boundary was unacceptable crossed, to speak about it, but also that it would be OK to leave, but that would not mean the end of the world to me.


in terms of physical preparations, i kept going to the gym and loosing weight. even on the Friday i was seeing You i was training and pushing myself hard at the gym - something i slightly regretted when it came to serving You Sir.



How was it to live through such a training


i started out very nervous Sir. i had no idea what could happen or occur, and whether i could trust You. however there was some trust there right at the start - it is not often i would close my eyes with a stranger on a metro in a new country Sir and try and doze!


the first thing You did to me Sir is still a shock. the physical affect it had was incredible and still hard to believe. at the time it was hard to believe it was the sensations You made me experience rather than bad food.


how You easily coped with that and found a way to carry on with the session helped build that trust Sir. as that evening went on that trust built more and helped create a foundation for the next day Sir.


the trust continued that day to build and i found it easier to trust and serve You Sir.


i was very reflective, and mindful throughout all of our sessions Sir - until the last one. i noticed how when You hugged me at first, i would hug You but not strongly, to the end of the sessions on the second day where there was no inhibition to hugging You Sir.


in terms of mental preparation i kept that centeredness in me Sir, focusing on the hear and now, and not thinking or worrying on the past of future Sir. as time went on, it was easier to do that Sir.


for the most part i found it very natural and easy to serve You Sir. You were very good at making sure i knew what i should do or setting expectations.


the one thing i struggled with Sir physically was my muscles. i had trained so hard at the gym i was aching all over, and it made it harder to move, and to be flexible enough for You sometimes. with the forced weights i struggled more, as i was physically tired from the gym, and i found some of the bondage positions harder because of that - as opposed to how You had tired me up.


the final session was the one i was most nervous about, i was still worried about whether i could cope with a higher pain session after “the pegs”. instead You did something very different which i will speak about in the next question Sir.



What was left in your mind after the training


i hope this does not come over as melodramatic Sir, but i felt You had restored part of my soul.


it is a horrible thing to be full of doubt and fear. to serve is so natural for me, but the doubt and fear makes me doubt myself.


You helped move me another step through that. it is still there, but different.


i am more confident in myself, and what i might want, and when it comes to serving.


i have spoken about centredness through out these questions. at the end of the training i felt truly centered and content Sir. i felt peaceful and stronger.


i also felt myself in that final session just focus on You, and what You were doing to me Sir, no mindfulness, no reflections, just the void Sir.


i also felt very thankful to You!

slave phil

Chasing ...

Dreams



Far away from the world there is a place where we rest at the end of the day


It is a unique place made specifically for you


In it you live what life does cannot provide you


It is built of memories past, some made long ago and others still fresh in the mind from yesterday, filled with feelings and emotions that we sometimes cannot even comprehend


New connections are made within, making balance between what really is and is not, exploring and reaching as far as your imagination can take you


There is no control over what happens, but we give in to it without even knowing the reason


All we know is that all will be better afterwards if we accept them at the correct time



Not all dreams are calm and peaceful


Some exist that catch you off guard and seek to trap you in a place you cannot escape from


What makes the difference between the quiet dream and the nightmare is our perception of it and our ability to cope with what is shown



Nevertheless, good or bad, all dreams vanish as we awake




Some are able to recollect what has happened




Three questions were made to two who have touched them


For you, they will tell their story


Enjoy

A Master's agenda - Year 2014 Summary

I would like start by saying that for this year I planned not doing more than 12 sessions


Due to changes of work, my time is not as extended as it was in the past and my availability for doing them is diminishing rapidly


Nevertheless I did 14 sessions, more than I initially predicted


Preparing a two hour session involves just setting up the gear and choosing a theme for the play (should probably say three hours as it takes about one hour to put everything back in place and clean all objects that have been in more intimate contact with my slaves)


Preparing an initiation involves convincing my partner to host the slave, setting up the house to have him, preparing food to be eaten during his stay and setting up the proper mindset to train him


As you can imagine the cleaning up takes more than a couple of hours (sometimes a week)


These sessions are set with at least a month in advance



For the preparation of the final training it takes close to three months of preparations and demands that I take holidays during the training as it involves my 24h dedication to the task at hand


It is by far the most demanding of the trainings and one that only the most promising slaves will have the honor to see it done by my hands



My trainings do not come cheap on body and mind for both slave and Master


As such I select those that I see worth of living them



I would like to say that every slave out there is worthy of my time


But that is false



Every experience that I have offered is meant to change the world within



That does not mean that you will be able to feel it


That will depend at the point of the path you are in



Being in contact with me, exchanging messages and seeing my face does not grant you the right to be my slave



Having a date in my agenda does


Proving that you have what it takes, showing proper manners during a conversation and showing you have the strength and seriousness do survive it is a precondition


But showing that you need my training to pass to the next stage is what will make me take you above all things



I am above all a slave trainer


And I enjoy a good challenge